Procrastination is a wonderful thing

I finally spoke to Alicia on the phone today! Woot! Alicia is my friend from group who I really feel like I have a lot in common with. I've wanted to become better friends with her for a long time but haven't really done anything about it. Today, when I was having what she calls a "minor melt down" I actually called her and we talked for a bit. I was really proud of myself and it seemed very pro-recovery (especially considering I've been doing so badly the last few days). I'm really starting to get concerned because I've been feeling myself spiralling down again lately. Fortunately I can at least identify it now. I had a really good talk with my mom about it the other day and she's got me calling my doctors on monday and has agreed to go with me to visit them. I was telling her that I thought I might want to do a more intensive program over the upcoming winter break, which I think kind of freaked her out a bit since she didn't seem all that down for it, but I think it might be a good idea. Anyway, not I am sitting back at my computer freating a little bit less and putting off working on my spanish paper that is due tomorrow morning. I really should get that shit done.