I forgot to buy Shampoo today :(

Chev came to visit this weekend. It was absolutely awesome seeing her again. Sometimes I forget that it's possible to enjoy myself the way I use to. We watched an absolutely amazing (and I mean amazing in the sense that it was so horrible it had to be appreciated) horror movie staring Snoop Dogg. It required much more contemplation than I care to admit. We got two hours of sleep and then left to the airport at 4:30 in the morning. It reminded me of last year making late night trips to LAX and listening to JT on the radio (of course this time there was no JT, but there certainly was some Brittany and that was good enough). I think for the first time in my life I didn't get lost either going or coming. It was a miracle.
I was really glad that Chev got to be here for the showing of my latest dance in my contemporary choreographers class. Seeing the look on Laurie's face when I re-entered the stage completely naked almost made me burst out laughing. I tried my best not to smile. I think I failed though. The evening was made even better by the fact that Mark then proceeded to perform the single ladies dance from Beyonce's music video. He's gotten amazingly good at it.
Today I feel a bit better than I have been feeling. I managed to make it all the way through a ballet class yesterday. It felt pretty good. I had the startling, and I suppose rather obvious, thought on my drive home yesterday that the actual perpous of my ballet class is to learn. I therefore probably shouldn't beat myself up as much as I do when I don't get the combinations right. I'm there to learn them.
I went to an early morning meeting today and even though I felt a bit uncomfortable and the woman who was suppose to meet me there didn't show up, it was still time well spent. I bought flowers and cards for my last day of outpatient (today) and I'm now sitting on the computer enjoying some music and reading up on the best translated books of 2009.

Sundays full of driving and cigarretes

I went out to Santa Monica to visit some friends yesterday. It was a little nerve wracking (partly because I backed in a car while lost looking for their house). I got to spend a good amount of time with a former roommate of mine which was really nice. We went out to lunch and walked around down town. She seems to be doing really well and she told me all about her new boyfriend. Of course we got lost trying to find where I'd parked my car and I was kinda stressed by the massive amounts of traffic and people, but the time we spent together was fulfilling. Picking her up from her apartment I got the chance to see a few more of my old friends who I've missed desperately since returning to California. It was really nice to see them again even if it was for only a minute. When I dropped Alyssa (my former roomie) back home I was able to sit with my good friend Su for a bit outside. We chatted and caught up which filled me with such a bittersweet happiness. I really miss her a lot and it was wonderful to see her even if it was only for 15 minutes or so. She told me seeing me there was like suddenly coming home for her, which almost made me want to cry. The whole reunion was bittersweet. I was so glad to see everyone and spend time with them, however it was a stressful day and the time went by way to fast. I wish I'd been able to spend more quality time with everyone else. I miss the closeness we once had. I'm glad I now know where they live at least. Maybe I can go back for a second visit sometime.