renewed interest

So I've decided I should start keeping this blog up again. I took a short hiatus from it for a while, but since I sit in the music library for three hours in the middle of every saturday, and since I'm way too umotivated to use that time for my homework, I figure I may as well keep myself occupied by blogging. I'm tired of feeling disconnected from everyone and maybe if I start keeping up this blog again I'll start feeling as though I'm reaching out some. It's a nice way to stay connected to my good friends who are now all over the country (and in some cases on different continents).

I've been in kind of a funk lately. The year began with a frenzy of activity and a bunch of worries. Now, however, things seem to have sort of fizzled out. This gloomy weather today has put me in a very strange mood and considering the circumstances of the last couple of days everything just kind of seems unreal.

For the past couple days I've been frantic, meeting with psychiatrists and my parents, but today I feel oddly removed from it all. My parents are in Santa Barbara and for once my suitemates and I don't have any big weekend guest staying with us that needs to be entertained. James is here this weekend, but fortunately he's staying with the boys (last time he came to stay with us he exteneded his stay for a week without asking anyone and I think my roommate is still a bit ticked about that). Josef will be here today also but I think only for the day. That's exciting though because hopefully I'll get to get in some good tv watching with him and Alice and absorb some of their obsessive fan knowledge. I love hanging out with the two of them. They are so cheerful and willing to include me.

Last night we celebrated Stephy's 21st with a party and a will smith marathon. It was slightly more wild then one would expect a drunkin will smith marathon to be. At least things are never dull in our suite.

I went to visit my friend Ben in the hospital today. He had to have surgery on his knee and he's been there for about a week. It was nice to see him. I got to wheel him around a bit which was fun and he taught me about some video game with a giant pink ball. I got to talk to his mom some too which was nice since I haven't seen her since the end of high school. I was always really fond of her, despite the fact that I think if we were ever to get in a real deep conversation I would find that there are a lot of fundamental things we don't agree on. I was sorry that I had to cut my visit so short with Ben since I had to get to work. He's having this giant IV needle installed in him. It's suppose to last for the next 3 weeks so that he can be taken care of at home. I'd kinda wanted to see it. The thing sounded terrifying but also kind of cool. I'll probably go back and see him again tomorrow. It'll give me something to do (besides the homework that I'm sure I should be doing).

Well thats been my weekend so far. With any luck I'll find some fun activities to keep me occupied tonight. Peace.